Wednesday, November 29, 2006: words for thought
i really dont know what to say anymore. i'm irritated, annoyed and everything else i know i shouldnt be.
today was a pretty interesting day. went to zong's house and followed him to the vet's, and then slacked in his house until it was time to meet wesley and sarah. some evangelists from this christian center visited his house while i was there, and it was rather strange to me cos they never really explained the real reason for their appearance and i was taken aback. we were talking about evangelism, and the truth of the bible, and zong was asking them how do we share with those who get turned off from christianity by the "un-holy" way we act sometimes. i guess its pretty true.
matthew 7: 15-23
“Beware of false prophets who come disguised as harmless sheep but are really vicious wolves.
You can identify them by their fruit, that is, by the way they act. Can you pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles? A good tree produces good fruit, and a bad tree produces bad fruit. A good tree can’t produce bad fruit, and a bad tree can’t produce good fruit. So every tree that does not produce good fruit is chopped down and thrown into the fire.
Yes, just as you can identify a tree by its fruit, so you can identify people by their actions.“Not everyone who calls out to me, ‘Lord! Lord!’ will enter the Kingdom of Heaven. Only those who actually do the will of my Father in heaven will enter. On judgment day many will say to me, ‘Lord! Lord! We prophesied in your name and cast out demons in your name and performed many miracles in your name.’
But I will reply, ‘I never knew you. Get away from me, you who break God’s laws.’so it really made sense, and i was trying to apply it to my life. do i ever really give a second thought about my actions and do what i do examplify holy living? is it right for me to just sweep everything off with a simple "God will forgive me because He is a gracious God and all men are fallen anyway." statement? i guess not, cos the immediate rebuttal i thought for my statement was that i would have to answer for my actions and attitude on judgement day.
and this was all well planned and thought up before i left zong's house this morning to meet sarah and wesley. then at caroling i let my pissed-ness get the better of me. how hypocritical of me to say one thing and do another. i guess after all that i've thought through today, nothing has really sunk in, and whats more, in the house of God! ): i guess, living as God's chosen people, as disciples of God and as reflectors of God's name, its not easy for me. thats why, "small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it." matt 7:14
but everything's slightly better now. just slightly. i still have opinions i want to voice out, before my chest gets too heavy laden with stuff that i feel i should say but dont have the courage to air these. all in God's time. i just pray that what i say wouldnt be taken too lightly, and also not too seriously either, because first and foremost, as a friend, it is my previlege to share my feelings and opinions, to offer aid when needed and secondly, its ultimately not me who makes the decision for my friend, i'm only there to offer my view.
i also want to thank God for other friends who make me feel better about myself, even though i'm feeling rather mixed up inside. oh well (:
on a lighter note,
sarah, zong, wesley and i went to marina sq to eat lunch at yuki and yaki. HEEHEE. it was so good! hahah, its like seoul garden style. and then they have ice cream too. (: so we had like a 3 hour lunch and lots of laughs cos wesley has such a small stomach, and the stuck ice cream in the teppenyaki plate.. :P it was fun.
and after caroling raymond drove past and with huiling, deanne and edward in the car, and they offered me a lift to somewhere. then me and edward took a bus home. it was pretty cool talking to and getting to know him cos i dont really know him. so that was nice.
tmr is going to be a long day, ending with dinner with the study group.
precamp starts on friday.
and i'll be mia for 5 whole days, cos i'm at camp!
(:
a shout of praise.
11:12 PM
